Valentine's

Another one of the most commercialized occasions for lovers and those inlove. I think I'd rather talk about something else than talk about Valentine's. Too much has been put to it already and I'm growing quite sick and tired of it. Same as what I feel whenever Christmas and New Year comes.

Well, I've read an interesting passage from Anne Rice which says:

When we are weary, we speak lovingly of dreams as if they embodied our true
desires - what we would have when that which we do have so
sorely dissapoints us.

Interesting comment from a gothic novelist...So what does it mean? That dreams are what we would rather have instead what we do have? That dreams are what feeds malcontent?

Or are dreams a product of what we want to become, of things we long for yet we cannot have? Or is it the beacon of hope which makes us strive harder?

Saturday Club

A friend asked me, if given the chance, who would you pick: (1) a person whose wiiling to leave her current partner because of you (2) a person who'd leave her family (meaning, husband and child) because of you or (3) a person who prioritizes her career more than you...

My answer: I'd choose person number three. Simply because you are not competing with a living, breathing person unlike the other two where you will always have doubts. It isn't like you don't trust her but the past will always haunt you and you would always think that, if she was able to leave her partner or husband because of you, what makes you think she won't leave you for another person in the future? At least, with a career woman, you only have to compete with her job. But I guess some people would want to have another person as a rival than to compete with a faceless, breathless thug...

Ranting On

Dude, I had this feeling since we last talked that you wanted to put the blame on me for what happened between you and your girlfriend. I am, of course, upset about it but I want you to know that it's so unfair for you to blame me over what happened.

If your girlfriend has decided to end your relationship with you let me tell you that I had convinced her otherwise. She is, of course, saying that her decision is partly in connection of what I told to her brother. I already explained to her my side of things and I knew that she is inclined to believe her brother. Afterall, they're family. What I can't accept is for you to blame me as well over what happened. Didn't you realize that it's such an insignificant reason to break up with you? I hate to be blunt, but didn't you realize that perhaps it's just a reason she gave simply because she never really wanted to continue her relationship with you in the first place? As what my officemate said when I sought advice, "stop looking for reason why your friend's girlfriend decided to leave her. There is no reason simply because there isn't. It's human nature to go deeper and seek answers because we want to make justification but, the only reason I could think of, is your friend's girlfriend has long contemplated of leaving her. It's just that she can't find a reason to do so. When the incident with you happened, she made it an excuse to get off the relationship. It just so happened that you were in the line of fire, thus, the blame was put at your door. But don't blame yourself because of it."

I hope in time, you'll realize that she doesn't love you that much. If she loves you, she won't walk away no matter how many bad things she hear and no matter who say it. Remember, bro, "Kung gusto, may paraan. Kung ayaw, may dahilan." But please, don't believe that her reason to leave you is because of what I said. It's absurd. She may have a deeper reason and that isn't in my hands anymore.