how many times have I heard the cliche "blessing in disguise"? oh, too many times already. eversince i was a child (i purposefully avoided using the word "little"), i have heard the phrase being used many times over. and until now, i never realized how true it is...
sometime ago, i received a text message saying "people change because of two reasons: either they have grown enough that they want to or they've been hurt enough that they have to". how can you ever place someone whose been with you since childhood growing up before your eyes? when you have elder brothers whom you feel are jealous of your achievements that they couldn't hide their insecurities, you learn to ignore them. because of that, you grow apart and you treat them like strangers.the same brother who once told me, "bakit mas pinapahalagahan mo yung mga kaibigan kesa saken? kapatid mo ako, ah!" oh, he was drunk then. i don't know if he meant it but i never believe that drunk people don't know what they are doing.
my second eldest bro and i is under a year apart. he was born jan 1978 and 11 months later, i was conceived. in my childhood days, i remember i always played with him. he taught me how to play every boys' game that you can think of (text, jolens, kotse-kotsehan, sipa, etc.) and i've always loved following him around. he became a father at 17 and that's also the time that we started to drift apart. he started grew fond of peers and vices that i grew to hate the way he always leave his young wife and even younger children behind. i grew to hate him and everything he stands for. how can you love an able-bodied man, in the prime of life who doesn't even try to land a job to feed his family? i guess, only his wife accepted him...and my parents.
am i jealous of him? yes, i am. he's the black sheep of the family and yet, my father cried upon learning that he won't be coming home because he decided to live with his wife at 16.he can never stay at work for a long period of time and yet my parents fed his children even to a point of sending them to school despite the fact that i have younger siblings who needed the same attention.
we never really thought that he'd outgrow his childish notion of blaming our parents for what became of him. and yet, something happened. and that's how i realized what blessing in disguise mean. have i ever experience that? oh, yes. i'm so young then. he and i were both presented with the same situation. the only difference was that i rose to the challenge. of course, there are times that i cried my heart alone because i felt like no one could understand but i persevered. and he didn't. that was then. now, i can see the change in him. he's more calm with himself, more responsible with his family, more mature in dealing with everything else.and i'm glad that it didn't take him a lifetime to realize it.
in life's highway, you will be presented with a situation on which there can be no turning back. it will be a situation so tight that you wouldn't know where to turn. a confrontation so sudden that you'll be left with no choice but to face it...but that could turn out to be a blessing in disguise.
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